Today I'm keenly aware of the fabulous-ness of my life. Do you ever have these moments where you wonder how you got so lucky to have such a good life? I don't have these all that often because usually I'm stuck someplace in the land of "if only I had that then...." It's really a shame because it really robs me of appreciating how rad my life is today. I have a job that is flexible, (so I got to spend part of today celebrating my boyfriend's 40th b-day!), I have a boyfriend who adores me (and I him - AMEN to that!), I have a family I adore, enough money to allow me to go on fun, fabulous vacations and most important or at least equally important, I have friends that are SECOND TO NONE! Just writing this right now I realize I have NO room to complain or whine about a thing. It's all good. The sad thing is, that just about everyday my mind will tell me something that often convinces me that my life isn't quite as good (as yours or hers or his....). And the crazy thing is that my mind really has my number dialed because it gets me with things that are really convincing to me; most of which are material items. It takes me getting news two days in a row that one of my closest cousins has just been diagnosed with breast cancer and then the following day getting news that her dad, one of my favorite uncles has just been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. That's when I know for sure that life is not about material items - cars, homes, jobs, money, vacations. It's about love.
And how do I know this? Because in both conversations with my family members who were relaying these hard facts to me, all I could think about was how much I loved both of these relatives. Not because they were/are rich or dress savvy or drive a fabulous car, but because of who they are and what they represent in this world. My pocket book doesn't hurt when I think about losing either of these precious people - my heart does!
I'm getting it S-L-O-W-L-Y.... life is about love. Life is about giving, receiving, opening my heart, sharing myself, taking chances on behalf of my heart and most important it's about appreciation. I am beginning to realize just how much I take for granted the way things are - I have what I call an "of course" attitude. An attitude of entititis! Nope, things change... ALL of it - eventually changes.
So... just for today I'm going to appreciate all the goodness in my life. I'm going to savor all my interactions today as if it's the last time I'll speak to that person. This is a mental shift that will take some concerted effort and work - but I'm a firm believer that if I can change my mind, my life will change as a result..... for the better!
Here's to living with appreciation in the moment.